I Always Thought That I’d See You Again

Posted by RJ Marmol on Jan 18, 2009 in Family Activities, Myself, Personal, Sad Thoughts |

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Just hours ago, I had an epiphany. Beautiful. Quiet. Fulfilling. Dreamy.

If I could bottle it up and show it to you, I would have done it, just to prove to you how wonderful it is. But there’s no bottling abstract feelings of the heart or ecstasy of the soul. There’s no describing it. It is beyond words. Even beyond images. It’s something that can only be understood by another heart — one that beats in time with yours, one that’s so sensitive and in tune with the slightest of your emotions.

They have an overrated term for it. Love.

But I won’t call it that. I won’t call it by any name. And that’s because lately, after 29 years of earthly existence, I had a stunning realization — calling “it” love reduces it to mere fad — like a hyped phenomenon. Like a programmed response to an act of kindness. There may be truth in it, but who can really tell? And sometimes, the more you focus on the term, the more you dwell on it, the more that it loses its meaning. There has got to be a better term out there for it. But no, it’s not love. It’s something far better, something far greater.

I write this post for a wonderful person, whose mere existence is a blessing in itself. I write this for that person who never left, come hell or high water. I write this for you, my dear Ritchie. I write this to let you and the entire world know that I will be forever remorseful of the wrong I have done you. I wish I could have spared you from the pain. And I wish I could rewrite the story, skip the bad and make it all better.

Yes, I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain. And I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end. I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend. But I always thought that I’d see you again. And I did. And I still do.

Click here to listen to “Fire and Rain” by James Taylor

Here’s to nine years of friendship, four years of marriage and one adorable son. Few things in this world astound me. And of that few, nothing comes close to my amazement of your incredible display of commitment. Whatever happens, come hell or high water, I know that I will always see you again.